This resonated with me so hard and i am so sorry you went through what you went through and I believe you and am so happy you exist. Thank you so much for this, your work is so important <3
Creator, wherever you are I truly hope youre doing great. or at least better. I just w anted to say this "zine" (among very different games) have actually inspired me to create some experiemtnal artpiece myself someday. I've just had a lot of time to think about the future with all the shit going on nowadays. idk maybe it's a stupid thought and I'm sure it means nothing to you.
but I think it's important for those like me who felt they havent done anything important in their life, be encouraged to make an expression. something that will be a part of their history on this earth. but it's all just coding after all.
Also is there an official ost for this anywhere? it's quite interesting
Amazing game. The best fever dream one could ask for. One question though. Can I have the text from shortuct 2 in the game? reply to my message and copy it down below if it cannot be copied all at one send it in sections. If anyone did that it would be highly appreciated. Thanks.
Most surreal game I ever played. Played it 2 years ago and I loved it! Beautiful meaning and wacky graphics and gameplay. Big inspiration for when I develop games!
This was fantastic, your best project and it goes into top 20 on this entire site. It is like a videogame movie. It's not that much of a game.
First and most notable thing about this, the graphics, artifacted artificial photos of real life things, fire, skulls in bright colors, all overlayed by designed to seem fishy but amazingly cute cartoon characters.
The most notable main characters are the rabbits, naive, cute, always hoping in the worst possible case scenarios. All their purpose is coping, they cope, and hope, physically and technically unable to fix the situations, dying, but coping.
You get to play simple childish games like choose a number! Choose a meal! Draw something, talk with strangers. But everything turns out to be sad, the giant monster who got extremely sad for a worm just saying bad things about him is the best example.
You look through computer files and find these games, you see the story progress as the main character loses his legs, dies, and still somehow smiles. AI collecting personal data to take your organs away later? Oh everything happens,
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK!
Apparently the player in this story, the real main character actually has problems like that himself, his family had problems because of the war. And a man named Igor (i don't remember how it was) is apparently trapped in your computer.
He and somebody else (megabyte was his name or something), write poems for you, and they ask you for feedback.
Aside from that, the music, graphics, voice acting, everything, absolutely everything in this game is done right. Character design, is perfect, i love it.
As you described, it is like a great fever dream, it is weird, not ARMAged0NNN! level of weird but its extremely weird.
Thank you for creating this game, i loved it if you didn't see already, i cried when i first played it, sincerely enjoyed this mess. I beat it two times and wasted good 14 hours on both of these playthroughs.
I could say more, but this, this is a 10/10 and i have seen a lot of games on this website, a lot, still i don't get and don't understand this game.
This is one of the first games in a long time that I fully related to without completely understanding. You did absolutely fantastic, and I hear what you're trying to say. I have never related to a piece of art more. Thank you so much.
Hey Nathalie, I'm a big fan of yours and just wanted to send you all possible digital love you can have rn. Stay strong and stay safe. You are one remarkable person.
This game transcends just being a "game", its a piece of art. This is hands down one of the most unique things I've seen on itch.io. Its a must play, and a must play again, and again, and again.
Hi! I just wanted to say that I found this zine to be really thought provoking, the raw heart of it shines through in such an intense way. It's truly a unique experience (and the cool aesthetic definitely contributes to that). Thank you for making this wonderful piece.
Loved the game, played it fully. This is kind of out of the blue, but if anyone knows where I can find the animation for the egg walking (in the missing page 3.txt OS when you click "run")?
This was heartbreaking. Thank you so much for making this. I'm sorry to hear about the lack of support you received after your trauma. There are so many social ills that our negative feelings reveal, and it's sickening to hear that the people around you at the time simply wanted you to return to some facade of positivity, for their benefit, rather than yours.
I've learnt a lot about these victim-blaming/self-responsibilisation issues through university, but never had them delivered in such a creative, crushing and intimate way. I hope you're in a better space now, but if not, that's fine. I'm always open to talk if you ever want support.
Okay, so. I've come back to this a few times. In several different states of mind, no less! My first experience with it was only surface-deep. The moments of sincerety scared me off the first time. I wasn't ready for it. Chasing my euphoric dragon all the way to Hell itself, I wanted only to laugh. So I did. I politely disregarded the rest. One day, God--should you choose to believe my truth--at last spoke to me and told me that I'd been making my way to Hell the whole time. The drugs. The alcohol. The sex. The desire for money, fame, power. I saw a light of my own, as I found myself in my own Hell for the last time on December 21st, 2018. Mark my words: It was the last time I went willingly.
So, After a month sober and spiritually free, I came back to this. I don't know what I expected. I wanted to see if I'd relate to it. I don't know if you'd expect me to since I led this comment with the chin and used the G-word right off the bat, but I did. I've seen Hell. We've all seen it. All of us. The broken, the misunderstood, the rejected, the bastards, the bitches, what have you. We were different. Society didn't like that. For the longest time we believed Life itself did not like us for the strange and unpopular colors we seemed to shine.
I could keep rambling but, I'd just like to say this for now, as I'm only about halfway through the zine, intent on finishing it some time later. (I'm delving into every little bit, even the sincere poetry, which is very powerful! I commend your soulful writing!!) Shine on, you crazy diamond. God doesn't let you die until it's your time. I'm living proof. I chased my fun past the brink of death more than once (Overdose) and I'm still kicking. God knows you have something to show the world. You have a powerful message to share to the misfits like us. Bring us together, and we'll become stronger than any billion-dollar baby in a cushy office, looking for the next big thing. Rock on. I love you. (Platonically. I'm a gay man, incidentally. Bi, but... mostly into dudes. I still support every bit of your message. I have my own battles to fight in that regard, but I'll stand by you as you fight yours.)
Lastly, I wrote this and ejected it into the void once... (I ctrl-c'd it, just in case.) "God and the Devil are inside each and every one of us. It is you who chooses which to befriend and trust. The ego wants it all and will never be satisfied. All you need is Everything. No more, no less. Nobody needs it all. We just need life itself. Everything in it. Life is a multiplayer game. Once you conquer the survival elements, you learn the secret to living is to stop surviving. Start living. Devils have fun in their gold-drenched Hells, surviving, filling their voids with riches and pride. I've got God in mine. I need nothing more. My own soul is mine. Amen."
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Spoilier: Everything was not Okay 10/10
Yor page is soo good that my brother is foaming at the mouth and breakdancing!
I feel like I remember this game but idk!!!! it just seems so famiiiiiiiiliar xddd
I think markiplier played it? 3:,
you know its a good game when your eyes scream for mercy on the download page
this is the best download page i've ever seen, aesthetic at it's finest
i have never seen such an amazing download page... I'm very excited to play this.
This game is wonderful and I love your art. Keep on making more art and I hope you're doing well.
This resonated with me so hard and i am so sorry you went through what you went through and I believe you and am so happy you exist. Thank you so much for this, your work is so important <3
Creator, wherever you are I truly hope youre doing great. or at least better. I just w anted to say this "zine" (among very different games) have actually inspired me to create some experiemtnal artpiece myself someday. I've just had a lot of time to think about the future with all the shit going on nowadays. idk maybe it's a stupid thought and I'm sure it means nothing to you.
but I think it's important for those like me who felt they havent done anything important in their life, be encouraged to make an expression. something that will be a part of their history on this earth. but it's all just coding after all.
Also is there an official ost for this anywhere? it's quite interesting
Amazing game. The best fever dream one could ask for. One question though. Can I have the text from shortuct 2 in the game? reply to my message and copy it down below if it cannot be copied all at one send it in sections. If anyone did that it would be highly appreciated. Thanks.
What a good nightmare . Very well done.
this game is... awesome, holy shit
what
Most surreal game I ever played. Played it 2 years ago and I loved it! Beautiful meaning and wacky graphics and gameplay. Big inspiration for when I develop games!
Hi, Epilepsy
beautiful...hahah
hey i just wanna say how life changing ur stuff is,, just,,, thank u for creating and sharing ur experiences
noli you here I seen this at youtube
This was fantastic, your best project and it goes into top 20 on this entire site. It is like a videogame movie. It's not that much of a game.
First and most notable thing about this, the graphics, artifacted artificial photos of real life things, fire, skulls in bright colors, all overlayed by designed to seem fishy but amazingly cute cartoon characters.
The most notable main characters are the rabbits, naive, cute, always hoping in the worst possible case scenarios. All their purpose is coping, they cope, and hope, physically and technically unable to fix the situations, dying, but coping.
You get to play simple childish games like choose a number! Choose a meal! Draw something, talk with strangers. But everything turns out to be sad, the giant monster who got extremely sad for a worm just saying bad things about him is the best example. You look through computer files and find these games, you see the story progress as the main character loses his legs, dies, and still somehow smiles. AI collecting personal data to take your organs away later? Oh everything happens,
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK!
Apparently the player in this story, the real main character actually has problems like that himself, his family had problems because of the war. And a man named Igor (i don't remember how it was) is apparently trapped in your computer.
https://alienmelon.itch.io/help
He and somebody else (megabyte was his name or something), write poems for you, and they ask you for feedback.
Aside from that, the music, graphics, voice acting, everything, absolutely everything in this game is done right. Character design, is perfect, i love it.
As you described, it is like a great fever dream, it is weird, not ARMAged0NNN! level of weird but its extremely weird.
Thank you for creating this game, i loved it if you didn't see already, i cried when i first played it, sincerely enjoyed this mess. I beat it two times and wasted good 14 hours on both of these playthroughs.
I could say more, but this, this is a 10/10 and i have seen a lot of games on this website, a lot, still i don't get and don't understand this game.
This is one of the first games in a long time that I fully related to without completely understanding. You did absolutely fantastic, and I hear what you're trying to say. I have never related to a piece of art more. Thank you so much.
I first saw this game on a stream and it made me feel understood at a time when I felt very alone. It's a very powerful work of art.
This is my favorite game of all time like how can a game be so good. I liked how it kind of allows you to just talk into a void.
Hey Nathalie, I'm a big fan of yours and just wanted to send you all possible digital love you can have rn. Stay strong and stay safe. You are one remarkable person.
I love this game even though it's strangely terrifying!
This game transcends just being a "game", its a piece of art. This is hands down one of the most unique things I've seen on itch.io. Its a must play, and a must play again, and again, and again.
i played the whole thing, most terrifying thing ive ever done 10/10
Hi! I just wanted to say that I found this zine to be really thought provoking, the raw heart of it shines through in such an intense way. It's truly a unique experience (and the cool aesthetic definitely contributes to that). Thank you for making this wonderful piece.
The screen feels like im tripping balls man.
what is with this screen with the flames and stuff
man I love this font
i wanna comment a lot just for the font! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
YEET
I can tell I'm in for a treat. （●＾□＾●）
Could you upload the game again, please? When i wanna download it, it gives me an error
Loved the game, played it fully. This is kind of out of the blue, but if anyone knows where I can find the animation for the egg walking (in the missing page 3.txt OS when you click "run")?
Why this is not a game to you?
Is there a a soundtrack list to this game? I may just be dumb and can't find it but the music is really soothing to me!! I wish everybody luck ;w;
p.s happy st. patricks day!!
This was heartbreaking. Thank you so much for making this. I'm sorry to hear about the lack of support you received after your trauma. There are so many social ills that our negative feelings reveal, and it's sickening to hear that the people around you at the time simply wanted you to return to some facade of positivity, for their benefit, rather than yours.
I've learnt a lot about these victim-blaming/self-responsibilisation issues through university, but never had them delivered in such a creative, crushing and intimate way. I hope you're in a better space now, but if not, that's fine. I'm always open to talk if you ever want support.
thank you for the kind words. it means a lot that this was your takeaway.
and that is very kind of you, yes, i'm in a better place. :)
uhhh, did I buy weed by any chance? I feel trippy...
Okay, so. I've come back to this a few times. In several different states of mind, no less! My first experience with it was only surface-deep. The moments of sincerety scared me off the first time. I wasn't ready for it. Chasing my euphoric dragon all the way to Hell itself, I wanted only to laugh. So I did. I politely disregarded the rest. One day, God--should you choose to believe my truth--at last spoke to me and told me that I'd been making my way to Hell the whole time. The drugs. The alcohol. The sex. The desire for money, fame, power. I saw a light of my own, as I found myself in my own Hell for the last time on December 21st, 2018. Mark my words: It was the last time I went willingly.
So, After a month sober and spiritually free, I came back to this. I don't know what I expected. I wanted to see if I'd relate to it. I don't know if you'd expect me to since I led this comment with the chin and used the G-word right off the bat, but I did. I've seen Hell. We've all seen it. All of us. The broken, the misunderstood, the rejected, the bastards, the bitches, what have you. We were different. Society didn't like that. For the longest time we believed Life itself did not like us for the strange and unpopular colors we seemed to shine.
I could keep rambling but, I'd just like to say this for now, as I'm only about halfway through the zine, intent on finishing it some time later. (I'm delving into every little bit, even the sincere poetry, which is very powerful! I commend your soulful writing!!) Shine on, you crazy diamond. God doesn't let you die until it's your time. I'm living proof. I chased my fun past the brink of death more than once (Overdose) and I'm still kicking. God knows you have something to show the world. You have a powerful message to share to the misfits like us. Bring us together, and we'll become stronger than any billion-dollar baby in a cushy office, looking for the next big thing. Rock on. I love you. (Platonically. I'm a gay man, incidentally. Bi, but... mostly into dudes. I still support every bit of your message. I have my own battles to fight in that regard, but I'll stand by you as you fight yours.)
Lastly, I wrote this and ejected it into the void once... (I ctrl-c'd it, just in case.) "God and the Devil are inside each and every one of us. It is you who chooses which to befriend and trust. The ego wants it all and will never be satisfied. All you need is Everything. No more, no less. Nobody needs it all. We just need life itself. Everything in it. Life is a multiplayer game. Once you conquer the survival elements, you learn the secret to living is to stop surviving. Start living. Devils have fun in their gold-drenched Hells, surviving, filling their voids with riches and pride. I've got God in mine. I need nothing more. My own soul is mine. Amen."